How am I supposed to feel about my son saying he could kill me if he thought he had to? WTF is that. Yes he has a mental disorder but how much am I supposed to put up with. At first I was hurt than angry than filled with anxiety. Now I feel sad, and pushing back against feeling grief. All I want to do right now is run away. Just pack a small bag and disappear. Why not???? Other than my sister I can't think of a reason why I shouldn't just move to another state or country. I sometimes wish I didn't know I am DID. Now I question everything. I think I will go take my meds.