yeah, that's what i thought as well. it is totally up to God. i totally asked for guidance to find healing. i don't know where this will lead me to, but i have faith. faith that i will not be given more than i can handle and that all of my needs will be met. faith that something or someone will be able to help me heal from my illness. i pray that i can find it soon. thank you for your prayers, also. and i pray for you as well.