i guess i could be worse. the breakup has me reeling still, but i'm kind of just numb at this point. i made the mistake of thinking my entire future would be with him. now i'm failing to see a future for myself, as a newly single (again) 19-year-old girl. i don't want to do anything and i feel like anything i did do would be pointless, because i have nobody to share my life with. i can't love myself. i'm NOT suicidal, but i just don't see the appeal in a life without love. the relationship lasted only four months, but what a beautiful four months it was that i must have forgotten how horrible and lonely being solitary is. i remember now.