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Originally Posted by lucidity11
How am I supposed to feel about my son saying he could kill me if he thought he had to? WTF is that. Yes he has a mental disorder but how much am I supposed to put up with. At first I was hurt than angry than filled with anxiety. Now I feel sad, and pushing back against feeling grief. All I want to do right now is run away. Just pack a small bag and disappear. Why not???? Other than my sister I can't think of a reason why I shouldn't just move to another state or country. I sometimes wish I didn't know I am DID. Now I question everything. I think I will go take my meds.
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Kids do say terrible things to their parents when upset or angry. Why not talk this over with your therapist?
Is your son ever included in your therapy sessions or do you ever ahve family sessions? This might be helpful as any mental illness affects every family member and there can be great resentment and anger and displaced blame all around. Most of us can use help dealing with our feelings related to these interfamiliar mental health problems. I think that may make you feel ebtter about this. In the mean time take care and dont balme yourself. Your son is likely struggling also. Try and understand that people can get so upset they say really mean and awful things.
On the other hand, if you think there is any chance your son is capable of trying to kill you and might actually act on this, then that is a whole other matter. In either case, please bring this up with your therapist.
Hugs to you and your son. Life is tough and we have to be tougher.