((((((((((((((( mandazzle )))))))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are feeling so low right now. I don't think you are a horrible person.

I do though have a concern that your post is very difficult to answer. We don't know what you would consider as a negative feedback/comment.

One thing I do believe though is this, I think you are more down on yourself than anyone else ever could be. If you think there is something about yourself that you might need to work on, then go for it! We are all a work in progress at any given time. Part of growing and maturing is recognizing when we have things we want or need to change about ourselves. In the process of the change, be patient with yourself. It takes time to re-invent ourselves and old habits die hard. But without trying, one would never know right?

Wishing you the best (((((((((((((( mandazzle ))))))))))))))))

Hugsss
sabby