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Originally Posted by Rainne
I dissociate quite often but the problem is I dont know when I am doing it, I have bought brand new things from the store and they end up missing, Like I threw them away, People have told me I have done things that I have no memory of, I get scared because I dont trust my own self, I have Cptsd and my therapist does trauma therapy, But I have only seen her once so far, I have alot of work ahead of, I also live alone and that makes me more scared, Maybe that is why I stay awake all night and sleep all day  |
((((hugs))))
The only way I can live is to live alone it seems.
In our system, it's like we all love life and the fear of dying by our own hands isn't real or we are not going to allow that to happen because for us, daily living is a group effort.
I've always figured that I had a rotten memory- things moving around or disappearing to maybe reappear later if ever, appointments forgotten, days and months slip pass, people asking me strange questions, parts of the day missing, live in a fog cloud daze at times, etc.
It can be quite distressing, annoying, frustrating, humorous, stressful, shocking, embarassing, dramatic, etc...and yes even scary.
But the scary part is in the not knowing. Now that we know that we are multiple, it's more annoying then anything else.
Keep going to therapy and I do hope that things get better for you.
