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Lapis, I believe it depends upon the severity of the PTSD. I won't question your reality, ok, just going to post some thoughts so you can work on where you were, and are ok?

Were you dx'd with PTSD by a specialist? How long after your trauma did you receive help/therapy with an expert in trauma? How "real" or "reactive" were your sessions in talking about/out the event/s that caused the PTSD?

That you cannot recall might still be a coping mechanism. You might not be ready to remember, or you might not need to remember.

Complex PTSD never goes away... PTSD can be quelched quite a bit so that the triggering subsides substantially even to the point where it's not an issue in day to day living.

You don't have to share anything, anywhere you don't wish to... remember that!

Again, good to have you here.

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As far as my therapy I've never had an expert in trama of the sort that I experienced simply because I don't have the means to get such help. Its just too costly for me, therefore I really can't say I had help immediately after my experiences occurred, not to mention I was threatened and forbidden to go to a hospital, police or any doctor with the idea that I would be harmed or my family would be at risk for harm if I sought any kind of help at all. Especially right after these things occurred. So I've lived in fear for years and got very little help thus far just because of extreme fear and paranoia that I would lose everything... family, job, etc.. It's hard to explain fully without revealing details I cannot share here.

Thanks for your help but, I'm not sure its too late for help to come and do me any good at all. </font>