Thank you for the reassurance. I think I might be amplifying the issue by contrasting myself to people who are into older guys.

I don't find it distressing per se since thankfully I'm after more than just looks. A good looking guy with a suited personality might do fine in future I think. I am initially drawn by looks, and I'd say right now it's a mature looking 14 upwards to someone who appears 18/19. In terms of porn, as much as I may or may not enjoy that range, I stick to the boundaries considering the ethics etc. I'll see if I can cut back on it for a while to just wait and see.