How can you do that though? How can you just stop talking to someone whom you care for and is need of help?

I am not disagreeing with the idea, you can't help her if you aren't in a good place yourself, but how do you stop? I deal with this everyday and I have never been able to find an answer. My T keeps telling me I have to worry about me and let other's take care of themselves. But how can I when I know that my actions hurt those around me.

Sometimes, during my "episodes", I do and say things that I can't figure out why I did them later on. When I get like that I can make others very uncomfortable and afraid, especially my friend / roommate. I want to move out but I can't afford it and he couldn't afford the place on his own. But I can't stand the thought that my actions will keep hurting him. I don't think I will ever get better, I don't think that is even possible. Why is it to get better I have to hurt others around me. I don't want anyone around me, I don't want to hurt anyone that doesn't deserve it. I can't trust myself.

Do you leave those in need that you care for in need so you can care for yourself? How does one even begin to do that?