I understand what you're going through, and yes, I think many individuals with BP experience both sides of the spectrum. In my opinion, it's easier to be apathetic. It's not as draining. When you empathize with others, your emotions become a rollercoaster ride. Anything can trigger fits of crying or anger.

When you're apathetic, I feel like that could go hand-in-hand with depression, irritability and hostility. Then again, I've gone through hypomanic phases where I have also been apathetic since I'm so concentrated on my own well-being.

Like I said, it's a rollercoaster ride for sure!