T,

You really did help me so much. The obsession has lessened a lot and I feel much more "normal". Most of the time I see who she really is. Thank you.

That being said, I still have days where I feel the old pain. Today, for example, we were at a social event together. We were sitting next to each other for three hours. I so badly wanted to touch her and to have her hold me. I felt so hurt when at the end of the event, she seemed to be in a hurry to leave to meet her daughter. I wish I was the most important thing in her life (I know how irrational that is). I miss her so much right now. Sometimes I want to be with her all the time, even though I do much better when I have some distance. Also, you clearly showed me that even if in some alternate universe I could make that a reality, I wouldn't be happy with that situation. I feel like this is never going to go away as long as she is in my life. Hope I'm wrong.