Hey there, I'm all too familiar with not being able to open the door of this apartment, that is why the peephole has been covered up now and..



These are just a reminder that the door is just a door, the issue for me was the invisible door that was dividing me from everything else.

The monstrosity of the deadened force is vacillating and self-castigating. I hope you're not being too hard on yourself, you probably made the decision that you needed at the time, the fear and the paranoia might not leave you alone anyways. Like someone before me said, you made it to the door and faced your fear. So the next time the fear comes back and try to corner you, you owe it to yourself to do something about it. I'm not trying to say to toughen up and be the end of it. I'm pleased that you reached out and gave us those words.

Hmm...are you serious? No offence but binge watching TV will never work for me, that's toxic. I'd watch the sunrise, the sunset or a starry sky and try to neutralize the negative perspectives, the world could still be beautiful. Same/opposite electric charges repel/attract each other, forget chemical imbalance for a sec, we are made of electron and stuff, the positive and the negative charge.

Do I make any sense at all? Been here for hours and this is all I got, so sorry that I'm useless. Feel better.

ETA: Feeling the little charge and one has to make sure that he's alive. TV kills it. The radio would be a better choice.