another thing - i've also been told i might have bdd. even after losing 50 lbs i still see myself as looking like i did at my highest weight and it leaves me very distraught. family have said they notice a difference and i can feel the difference in how my clothes fit now vs. then but i can't SEE it. i've been told i'm pretty but to me i look grotesquely ugly. i don't even feel human. no i can't see a therapist right now.