For the past several months, I haven't wanted to do anything except lie in bed all day. I can't remember the last time I watched TV, which for me, is a huge thing. I don't want to read. I don't want to draw. I don't want to color. I don't want to play piano or guitar. After I get the part I need, I don't want to fix my guitar. I don't want to go out anywhere - grocery shopping, shopping in general, the movies, dinner, etc. I don't even want to get dressed if I'm not going to work. I don't want to do anything productive in my house, although there's plenty that needs to get done. I just want to lie in bed all day.

This depression is killing me, but the antidepressants I've been on don't work. I've been told that's because the depression is secondary to PTSD and there's no medication for that. So because my PTSD is bad, my depression is a side effect. Awesome. That gives me little hope that this is ever going to end.