It's hard to wear that mask and takes a tremendous amount of effort. Some places like work I have to look put together and don't have a choice there.

I stopped trying to hide it even though it is hard on those around me. It's hard for some people to understand how much you can hurt and not look like it. If it was a car accident then I think we would get more sympathy and understanding. I share how I feel with the ones I'm closet with and I don't feel like I have to hide or be ashamed of how I feel. The people that don't get it I don't talk with a whole lot.

Why can't you share with your fiance? In my marriage hiding my depression had unintended consequences, my wife didn't know what was going on and thought I had lost interest in her. I don't go into the fine details with her most of the time, but I do let her know how I am feeling. It's hard on her but it is who I am and she still loves me.