It can feel like it sometimes , PTSD is a struggle. Do you feel any better for sharing with us here ? It can help to reach out to supportive and understanding people. We can work to heal. I never thought I would see trauma as a " gift " , but in a way it is , when we work to heal those wounds we often find the silver linings in clouds and things maybe beyond the general populace. Is there a meaning and a purpose to the trauma ? I wish for you to find that there is. Join us