Is there such thing as a 'quiet' psychotic?? Like the idea of 'quiet' borderlines (or people with BPD as the phrase should be), where most other people don't know they have BPD because the fear of abandonment etc is all directed inwards. I ask because one of the patients here is clearly psychotic and she has decided I'm somebody I'm not and am persecuting her, so there is a lot of screaming and shouting at me whenever she sees me. I don't act like that at all. She is clearly psychotic, but I am not. I could have a conversation with anybody about a 100 different topics and no one would think I was psychotic at all, as long as they don't ask me if I'm dead and then they say I'm psychotic. I just don't relate to that label at all. My uni pdoc said my 'delusions' are "well systematised" and that my perfectionist personality has kept me "well preserved" (like I'm some salted meat! Lol), I don't even know what that's supposed to mean but it's apparently meant to justify how I don't fit the stereotype.

Also how do you know when APs start working if you don't hear voices? Am I supposed to feel chilled out? Am I suddenly supposed to wake up and know I'm alive?? Is this questioning an early sign? Though I have had similar questioning about choices and truth etc before, some of you might remember, and I wasn't on APs then so personally I don't think it is. But maybe I could tell them it is working and they won't increase the dose? Or, more likely, they would use it to justify increasing the dose so it will work more! I hate being drugged against my will :/

*Willow*