Not long now. I wonder what games we can play. Time to start this I think. I know you said that knowing the real you wouldn't be helpful and I couldn't agree more but I might try to ask you a few questions, all fairly innocuous but I think it would help. I want to tell you that my Mum wasn't a bad person and I feel odd saying things about her. This us another of those vicious circles, I just don't know where to start, maybe we could figure that out.

I want to tell you about my experiences of counselling when I was younger too, it has been on my mind. I want to say I didn't like what you said last week when you said I was on my own. I don't want to be on my own, I can't do it on my own. Haven't I got you?

Oh, and two months ago you said that the room we are in is only temporary and that we would be in the other room soon. Your idea of soon and mine are clearly quite different. I want to ask you about that too. That will be quite enough for this week I think.

Miss you, see you soon.