This sounds like what I go through in not being "good enough" in my circle of friends. Everyone is living grand lives, bragging bout all the stuff they do, even their rants are glorious. they get all the attention.

Then I come along and my measly little brags or little rants go unnoticed. I hate being rejected by virtue of neglect. It feels like they are being cruel. I try but it never really seems like it's working for me - but it seems effortless for them.