T,

I really need you right now. I reached out to two friends and I still don't know what to do.

I feel like things are going downhill. I'm really struggling, and I need to make a decision about this life transition. Problem is, I'm completely stuck in emotion-mind, and I know I shouldn't make any important decisions when I'm feeling this way. But I honestly don't have time to wait until I'm more rational. Which is why I need you, T. I need you to be the rational, but non-judging person you have always been.

I have made such amazing progress, and this past year has been a testament to my hard work. But I feel like I've been holding in all these feelings, and now, at a time when it's typical to be stressed, I'm exploding.

What should I do, T? How do I go about this rationally? I'm tempted to contact family, but I pretty much know exactly how that conversation would go, and I know it would make me feel infinitely worse. It's not just that I want to prove I can do things on my own (yes, that's part of it), but you and I both know it wouldn't be helpful to involve them. Right?

T, I'm hoping we can chat tomorrow. But will that be too late? I think it might.

What do I do, T? What do I do???