An OK day for me, but not a great day emotionally. I went to church this morning. When I got out to where they serve that coffee and stuff, I stood around and no one wanted to talk to me. That seems to happen quite a bit of times. One time I had a small counseling session with the Pastor and he told me that he senses that I don't feel comfortable around other people. That's why they avoid me.

I stood around waiting quite a while to see my friend. But I could see him in the distance talking to all kinds of people. It took a long time for him talking to those people; so I couldn't wait for him. I took off and went home. He and I never ended up talking to each other.

I feel like I am entirely different from the people at the church. So I'm considering leaving there for good. I've been going there for three years. It's very heartbreaking that it has to come down to this. My friend would never want me to leave, but I feel like maybe it's the best thing to do.