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Originally Posted by Jaemariie
A couple days ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder I don't think I have it That was the first time I saw the psychiatrist he barely let me tell him my symptoms and he diagnosed me within 15 minutes. I know that I have always felt depressed but I don't really remember feeling manic/hypomanic. I just feel so lost and confused aside from me feeling depressed I sometimes get irritated and angered easily people have told me that I act like I'm not aware of the things I say & do they think I have different personalities and mood swings. I'm pregnant now before I got pregnant I was drinking a lot even though I wasn't really a drinker it made me feel numb I guess to depression and I would stay up all night talking and my boyfriend would say I was acting weird or he didn't like me drinking there was a time where I had sex with a guy that I just met and the next day I was depressed and regretted it sometimes I have racing thoughts that make it hard for me to sleep I can't feel emotions Its like I'm numb and empty I have a hard time concentrating and remembering things and I always quit my jobs the one thing I can say is a little off is everytime a relationship end I feel like it's the end of the world or I can't live without the person I feel really depressed like I need them sorry if it's long just don't have anyone else to talk to
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Things could and will get better with time, dear! It is hard to come to terms with a diagnosis of Bipolar, but in some ways, it can be a relief since you are starting to identify what the issue has been all along, so your life can belong to you again. In the words of Jimi Hendrix, "manic depression is a frustrating mess." It sure is! I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1. Many pdocs do make decisions rather quickly. Although these symptoms sound like signs of Bipolar, having a second opinion is never a bad idea. With the whole abadonment/attachment type issues you mentioned though....I would also ask a Psychiatrist about Borderline Personality, since that can sometime mimic Bipolar. Although I was not diagnosed with Borderline, I do get overly attached and depressed in a relationship where it feels I need them, so I can relate to that too.
I've made risky sexual decisions upon meeting someone the next day numerous times where I felt so guilty. Bipolar can be like having all these fires to burn out as soon as you fall into a depressive period...at least that's what happens to me. My concentration also becomes shot, and it's hard keeping up with work. Hang in there! Therapy and the right medication could make a great difference.