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Originally Posted by kecanoe
It takes me a really long time to talk about some of my feelings. I just admitted to t2 (who I have been seeing for almost 6 years) that I want her to think I am perfect and that I edit what I say so that I have her approval.
It seems like I could have said that years ago, but I could barely speak the words.
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Good point, kecanoe. I told my T just a month ago that I edit what I say in sessions, not exactly knowing why. Since I'm so fearful of disappointing T, I could very well be wanting to appear perfect - or not wanting to risk the disapproval all avoidant PDs experience. I'm sorry it took you so long to unburden yourself and I hope doing so will give you some sense of relief. I'm sure your T is glad to know that's how you feel.
Good for you!