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Originally Posted by ennui.
also i should add that i have disordered eating, which no one believes because i am fat, hence the starving. i would just lose weight the healthy way if i could, but it's not that simple. right now i need a partner to love my body as it is and as i lose more weight too. i don't want to have to put my love life on hold until i lose enough weight to be 'dateable' because i have needs that are being severely neglected now.
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Honestly - I suspected anorexia by the way you were talking. Anorexia is not about physical weight it is about the psychological thinking patterns. Are you being treated for it?
Also I wanted to ask due to your dire expressions of your need for love - if you have been tested or diagnosed with borderline personality disorder? It is something I deal with personally and that's a trait I instinctively picked up on with you - a sense of "abandonment" by the world in general...