So, I feel like I am in a relationship that is going to end any day. Our communication is near nonexistent. I sometimes wonder if this is all in my head and I am making the relationship seem worst than it is on my side. Just looking at old text messages, we used to text non stop. We go days between messages now and I feel I never get responses to my messages. With that said, I have been tormenting myself this last weekend with thoughts that the relationship is going to end. I feel delusional. Though, the last year and half that I have been in this relationship, all my friends seem to have disappeared. I feel that since I stopped offering to pay their ways when hanging out, they want nothing to do with me. I finally feel used and don't feel that I am important to anyone. Some moments I feel numb, others I feel devastated. I know I am whining, and am not sure why I am even posting this. I have no expectations on any responses, I suppose I just want to be heard.