Since I was in a lot of danger last week while in hospital (unlocked ward) my psychiatrist wants to meet with my parents to discuss with them ways of keeping me safe when discharged. While I appreciate my psych's proactive approach to may treatment I am terrified of my parents knowing just how bad I have been (even though they are not stupid and have probably worked that one out). I am very nervous about the appointment which is tomorrow. I hate upsetting my parents and I know this will make them sad. ON the other hand it may allow me to be more open with them about my illness. I have been protecting them since I was a child due to the fact that I had to hide severe abuse from them with the threat of death if I told. So, I guess this is hitting a nerve. Not sure why I posted this but it does help calm me a bit. Please wish me well.

Oh, and btw I am 40 years old