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Old Jun 06, 2016, 06:35 AM
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Originally Posted by winter4me View Post
I've been there....
I used to change jobs...for some reason this acted like a 'reset' for me, temporarily I would be fine at work if not elsewhere...it worked for years but now...now I am not so sure. I was in my late 50's before I took time off because of depression/anxiety/etc, two weeks with a doctor's note (he'd known me many yrs)---it provided a bit of relief but was frightening because I had never done that before...
You may find that others do not notice, or misinterpret what they see. That was generally my experience----when young, I was repeatedly being moved into positions of greater responsibility/authority---which was nerve wracking to me while others would comment on my "calm"----(I wanted to shout "no no not in HERE") with me knowing it would implode for me at some unexpected moment. Now, I find out people were upset that I left, confused by my moving about so much in work, even wanting me to stay...expecting me to stay...
Are you seeing a t? On meds? Have any outlet (I used to find aerobics helpful if done daily---)----really all I can offer is ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
Thank you for your reply. Hopefully no one at work notices anything - I do put on a pretty good act of being "normal" so hopefully that is working. I do worry that they could misinterpret my behaviour for laziness though because that is what happens with my parents and they know I have depression.
I am seeing a T but it has been hard trying to work through things and it has stirred up a lot of stuff. I was on meds but I was experiencing excessive sweating and I didn't think they were helping anyway. I have been tapering off them for the past three weeks but now I'm not sure if that was a good idea. I've been trying to get in to see a Pdoc to get this sorted out but that has been just a massive screw around. I used to have "outlets" but I have no motivation to do anything anymore.