Ruari, I know you feel very bad, but when I don't get replies to my threads, even though I feel worse that no one replied, but I try to understand that this forum is full of people who suffer themselves. Otherwise, they wouldn't be here.

I will say something here: I was like you. When I felt bad, I would write here. Sometimes multiple threads in one day. I discovered later that this isn't helpful. Actually it made me feel worse because I don't like to express my feelings in real life. So, now I try to keep it to myself as much as I can, unless I feel that I will explode otherwise, then I will write a short post.

I think internalizing the pain is more beneficial than expressing it. I know it's hard, but really eventually no one can help you (or me) in here. A post can make you feel better momentarily because you feel someone cares about you. But do you want to feel better momentarily or to get better permanently? That's why I was planning to leave PC because it felt like a pain killer, not a cure.

By the way, I read most of your threads, but most of the time I don't know what to say. Take care