Hi Shadix, There's nothing for me to say different than what others have already said. It's just hard to see that you are a mess over this. I don't know what happened to you or if there is some underlying MI causing you this much anxiety. You are making life so difficult for yourself. Why are you now focusing on dating younger women? You are only 28. How much younger are you looking for? 18? Why? What's wrong with women 19-28? You really need professional help with these self-image issues, sweetie.