I have been struggling with this lately. I have experienced everything from seeing my neighbor washing his car as clear as day and then turning my head and there was no one there to seeing a wicked hand try to grab me. I have seen shadow after shadow, cars that aren't there. Most of it I recognize as hallucinations or my mind playing tricks on me but, now that I am alone so much, I often go to my parent's house and maybe even spend the night there.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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