I have run the gamete of emotions the last few days. Anger, hurt, resignation, anger again, defiance, and now just sad and defeated. It feels like my husband has moved on, life as usual, hoping I won't press this issue any further. He wanted to cuddle yesterday. He expected me to join him for two family events. i defied him and said no, then I was sick to my stomach afraid that he was going to be really angry with me when he came home. Nope. He just came through the door and told me about his day with his family. He is his usual attentive self which throws me off balance and makes me feel like I am in the wrong, that I have blown things out of proportion. I just want to scream. I want to cry, but I can't. So I cut. Haven't done this since last Fall. Got a little release, but my stomach hurts again because I feel ashamed and afraid. i don't want anybody to see it. Sorry for another post. You all must be getting so sick of hearing about this.