Hello crossring: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks!

I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

There are many caring & knowledgeable members here. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more connected to the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join; & chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff!
The Skeezyks is not in a position to respond to the concerns you mention in your post. But I noticed no one had yet replied, so I thought I would. Hopefully other members who have had similar experiences will reply to your post. Please keep posting!