Please STOP and consider these thoughts....

Your overachiever and perfectionist qualities are admirable,
but I'm wondering if maybe you are too hard on yourself,
(too many demands/expectations) because
(maybe) it makes you feel like,
IF you have CONTROL over everything, bad things won't ever happen to you again?

- Even Donald Trump (your idol) has had many "failures"; I think he has filed for 4 bankruptcies and 2 marriages ending in divorce, and likely dozens of girlfriends...

And those are the type of things that make him seem more human.

I expect he would say (like most successful people do),
that he's learned more valuable lessons from his failures, then he has from his successes.

Personal relationships are complicated and very unpredictable -
And they often FAIL,
but the joy (while in them) far exceeds, the pain we feel when they end.

It's almost impossible, to feel healthy, without somebody caring about us.

Feeling loved will also help to heal the scars, from all those people that were so horrific to you.

Keep conquering the world, but please try to let somebody into your life, to share all your successes with.
I'm fairly certain that, will make you feel better, and more relaxed/content.

Since you're so independent and self-motivated, you have nothing to lose.
(You're obviously not afraid of being alone, like too many people are).
Minimal risk.

And btw, those who really care about you, it won't matter to them how BIG your empire is - -External successes are a measurement convenient for Society and Strangers,
but not a true indicator of a person's self worth, or their value as a human being.
It's the opinion's of those who care and love you, that matters most.

I remember a long time ago somebody said to me,
"It's what's written on our tombstones when we die, that really mattered in our life "
(I won't have one because I want to be cremated)...
But anyway,
tombstones say things like, "faithful husband, loving daughter...caring friend";

And, they don't say things like,
"Earned a million"; "Donated to a hundred charities"; "Opened 5 successful businesses"; "Won and became president"; "Read 1000 books", etc.

Important, admirable accomplishments, but not the MOST important thing in our lives.

Allow yourself more free time, to be human,
and to experience those things, that some day, will matter to you the most.

Good Luck