MC,
I hope you're not mad at the e-mail I just sent you (I know, you'll say you're not mad or annoyed or anything, but still...) I know I'm prying way too much. I know I'm being too needy. The stuff with you having to cancel a couple times recently just emphasized the differences between the therapy relationship and a more typical relationship, like friendship or a colleague. It's like I simultaneously feel very close to you, but am also very much on the outside of your life. Even though you disclose much more than a typical T. I care about you so much that I wish I could be there for you the way you're there for me. Instead I'm on the outside, wondering what's happening, feeling helpless. I'm thinking that's why I was so upset after today's session. Because the one on Saturday felt kind of intense, and maybe I just assumed something would come up today about why you had to cancel a couple times. Maybe I wanted to bring that up, or just assumed it would come up organically, but it just seemed like the session was over so quickly. (Granted, you did keep us considerably longer on Sat.)

I'm not sure how I want you to respond to my e-mail. Maybe just to say you understand, that yes it's difficult, that you appreciate my caring, that it's OK to pry (you can just choose whether or not to respond). And that your wife has something other than ALS, which is what my brain pegs as worst-case scenario. Because I don't want you to have to go through that.

Love,
LT