Thank you for the replies. It's hard for me to not help people because that is in me to be good. I love helping and making people smile. Maybe that is what makes me special in my own way. I spoke to my bf about this and he understands. The only thing is that I don't want problems because I don't want him to stop spending time with his brother, because she is always there, not to mention I don't want to create drama where I have to ask ''Let's hang out with him without her there''.

It helps a lot that I finally let this out... And to people outside of this circle. I don't feel so alone in this. I still have some time to find what I am good at... While I care a lot about other people, I also tend to focus more about them than myself. I like to think that I just haven't found the right people yet. I think... I just need to find things that make me happy. That's all that should matter. Not what they're doing but what I'm doing for me.