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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Hey hi, I admire you. 
I tried to apply the "I created..." to me and really was hoping. Like, do your creations take over? I mean I've read your posts and like, are they their own persons?
Do you have to fight for control to be?
Do you like have a really bad memory?
Do you like have no control over what you do or say....like just a watcher?
Does time seem to be like full of holes?
I've taken anti-psychotic meds and they don't work cause I'm so allergic to them....do they work for you?
Please help.. THANK YOU. |
I think it is just me pretending to be someone else. Depression taught me how to lie and pretend I am okay, so it was easy for me to be someone else.
The only bad memory that I remember would be being bullied and going to self-harm.
Sometimes my words go out before my thoughts but other than that I have full control except the few nervous ticks here and there.
Time is ruined for me. Firstly I do not even remember anything before the 2010. Then I have this thing where the hours pass by super fast, the days slow, weeks slow and months and years go by fast.
I think for now they do not work like they are supposed to, I have been told to give them some time so that is what I am doing. But for now they only work as sleeping pills
I didn't think they would knock me out as much and I only drink the half of a 15mg but hopefully I will get used to the side effect and move pass it.
Hope I was of any help.