Yes, I think that all the time. I imagine that it's just certain circumstances in my life that has led me to think it reasonable to frame my experience in terms of MI.
But then I think of myself at the most extreme expression of my mania/depression. For me that is black manias, where I writhe around and punch myself in the face and chant that I want to kill myself uncontrollably.
Ugh... Makes my skin crawl even to write about it.
Or the extreme depression where it feels like my entire body is full of poisonous tar and I'm just numb and bored and full of self hatred.
And I think
I bet I do HAVE bipolar...
I'm doing good right now, and it's good for me to have to write this, cuz it reminds me of what happens when I don't take care of myself.