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Originally Posted by scar12346
I think it is just me pretending to be someone else. Depression taught me how to lie and pretend I am okay, so it was easy for me to be someone else.
The only bad memory that I remember would be being bullied and going to self-harm.
Sometimes my words go out before my thoughts but other than that I have full control except the few nervous ticks here and there.
Time is ruined for me. Firstly I do not even remember anything before the 2010. Then I have this thing where the hours pass by super fast, the days slow, weeks slow and months and years go by fast.
I think for now they do not work like they are supposed to, I have been told to give them some time so that is what I am doing. But for now they only work as sleeping pills  I didn't think they would knock me out as much and I only drink the half of a 15mg but hopefully I will get used to the side effect and move pass it.
Hope I was of any help. |
Through the decades I have met many people who have suffered terribly with depression, and a handful of people with psychosis. 100% of the time a bit of me identified with the people who were depressed. 0% of the time did I identify with the people in psychosis - although I was able to understand their world once they let me in. I identify with your posts here a lot - I would say that most of me identifies with your posts in their entirety probably 72% of the time. Thats a massive hit rate in my world!
Im being treated for many things - SH, Sui I, anxiety etc But right there up there - Im being treated for my Dissociative States. I am not being treated for depression or psychosis. That, along with your post - which sounds a little like you're quoting something someone has told you? To me, and my completely untrained, unqualified brains - we think you absolutely belong here.