I'm sorry you are feeling like this...

Is this "Georgina" another part of you?

I see on your profile you have lots of mental health issues, but this makes me this of DID. (Dissociative Identity Disorder) Are you diagnosed with that?

I have no experience of that but there is a sub-forum for DID that might help you dealing with conflicting parts of yourself.

There will be a way to manage all this pain. I know sometimes things can seem bleak & there is no way out but maybe some therapy would be able to help you?