Sonne, I can relate. It is terrible to feel depressed and have no support from your spouse, who maybe experiencing the same. My hubby has to constantly keep a check on his depression, when it creeps in, it rubs off . . . . . . the best thing you can do is surround yourself with people who bring you out of that “funk” (as well as hobbies that give you creative joy) . . . . . take care of yourself!! I noticed that my mood effects my husband and vice versa . . . . . . maybe have a heart to heart with your husband. As my hubby always says “he is not a mind reader” . . . . . so maybe on one of your walks together, not only enjoy the walk, but maybe take the time to talk and re-connect as a couple.