(((FUZZY))). I am sorry that you are not feeling like yourself these days. You are not garbage Fuzzy and no one can make you something that you are not at any time. unfortunately you are just having some rather discouraging days at this time, and everyones opinions are getting to you that are untrue. It is hard to know the difference when you are not feeling well, you just have to hang in there and get the help you need to help you feel better to be able to see the truth. Try to call your therapist and see if they can help you dirung this time of need. Take care of yourself and stay safe unfortunately your family did not see the treasure that they had when they had you for a daughter, and that is a misfortune. Soidhonia.