Please don't hate your self! I've been in hard places similar to that. My journal has been a place of peace and freedom from some of those places. Don't know if you do journal, but just wanted to put that here.

When I'm in a place like that, I sit down and just write whatever comes to my mind. No editing. I just write what I hear. When I go back and read it, sometimes I'm amazed at what came out.

Don't know if that applies here, but just wanted to share what helps me in those places.

I hope you feel better. [emoji177]

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