I've been told I have decent insight. The doc said "did you study psychology, cause I see some insight there. I realize something is off but I tend to think it's everyone else and not me. I feel pumped full of drugs and I think people are drugging me. I really think everyone is dumb and nuts and I'm the only sane person. But I also know I'm not entirely myself. I feel like other people are trying to make me look crazy so they can lock me up for insurance profit. I recognize I do not assimilate and I know that you must assimilate to avoid living in the hospital so I take my pills when in hospital and listen to them talk and nod my head. I try to avoid letting them get a reaction from me because that gives them reasons to hold you. My insight is limited but I've known I was manic by how slowly everyone moves and talks. They are so slow. I shouldn't be hospitalized when I'm manic and doctors can be to quick to lock you up. Each delusional episode since diagnosis, I've known I was what would be considered manic, but I felt everyone overreacted to me. That's my side.