Hello EverExpandingForeve: The Skeezyks' experience has been that trying to self-diagnose is just a big tangled ball of wire that can never be untwisted. I don't know if this can technically be called OCD. But it certainly can feel like it. Personally, I suspect that the remedy is to get with a mental health professional & let them diagnose you... although, again personally, I haven't had a lot of success with that either.

My perspective is that trying fight back against unwanted thoughts & emotions just makes them keep coming back stronger. I strive to employ a Buddhist practice called: "compassionate abiding". This involves simply allowing thoughts & emotions to come up & being with them with lovingkindness & compassion until they fade of their own accord. It's not a cure. But with time, unwanted thoughts & emotions do lose some of their power, plus one learns that it is possible to stay with difficult thoughts & emotions & still maintain one's balance... one's equanimity...