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Originally Posted by will19
I would say "same here" for me on that one. I feel like I have a wry sense of humor and can make people laugh. I can smile quite a bit. In fact, some years ago at work, a woman who was a sketch artist drew a picture of me with a big smile. She said that I smiled a lot and that's why she drew it. I smiled a lot because I was happy to be there.
I guess there are certain settings where I feel like the best of me cannot come out. Being in a group (clique) setting is very off putting for me; so it's difficult to fake being happy. The church I go to is very much like that. And so at times the pool area at where I live can be like that also. There had been times when I'd sit in the hot tub, trying to relax, that the other people being there would get on my nerves. They are either in groups or in pairs; and they would totally ignore me. In situations like that I would feel like I'm ready to cry.
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Wow. I feel like crying just reading that. I'm really sorry, Will.
Anyway, I get extremely intimidated by couples, and groups, and everyone who isn't me. At work I used to function much better than how I feel now. All those years, I was so lucky that I could somehow survive. I'm still not sure whether I managed to smile even at work. I must have. I don't think I could have been successful if I didn't.