I have Bipolar 2, so the only time I was full-blown manic and delusional/psychotic was due to a high dose of steroids. I had a friend point out to me that I wasn't making sense and she asked me if I was manic. I was like, "Yes. Yes I am. I'm going to the hospital now."
But with hypomania, which I am much more familiar with, I generally know when I have it. I am really good at hiding my excitement from others, though because as Elsa says, I want to assimilate. My irritability is hard to hide from my husband because I can just let it rip around him and not be afraid of say, getting fired from my job. But I DO apologize to him after I snap at him. Sometimes he has to point out to me that I'm being snippy or overly insensitive. Then I realize, "Oh, I must be hypomanic."
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...Out of night and alarm
Out of terrible dreams
Reach me your hand!
This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep:
The white peace of the waking.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~
Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart 
Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN
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