Well I was free of self harm for about nine months. But today I cut. And I know that this one cut will turn into more. I am still not sure why I cut. But now I have to deal with it. I know I should not try to lie about it, but I am. I just don't see why I should put myself through another hospitalization when I am not suicidal, and I am hardly even depressed. I just don't see it, and I don't want my team to talk at me about it, or changing my meds when they are working better than they ever have.