I've been really bad for a week now. Even my antidepressants that usually work quite well don't work against the suicidal thoughts I'm having. I'm anxious about the summer and how I'm going to cope without therapy for a month and a half. So in session yesterday I was mostly silent. What did my therapist do? Nothing. She just sat there in her chair looking at me and when I asked her what she was doing, she claimed that she was "respecting my silence". This made me hate her so much. She did nothing to help me, reassure me, bring me some relief. She couldn't be bothered to do anything, on top of everything else. Everthing else is: the fact that she doesn't respond to emails, the fact that she's now taking a week of vacation per month, the fact that she won't do any the things people here write about. So after the session, I wrote an email saying I was quitting. But the thing is, I'm so attached to her. Despite everything. So I alternate between feeling angry, feeling horribly hurt and feeling extremely low. I don't know if I should keep going to therapy or if I should just quit. Of course, the attachment + the comparisons I keep making between my therapist and all the wonderful therapists on here don't make things easy. Sorry for the long story. Any advice appreciated. Thanks in advance.