There doesn’t seem to be a single place to just post “about me.” Everything seems segmented: weight loss & exercise, relationships, mental health support, general chat. Seems chaotic to me since I live one life and must manage all those things together, not separately. Anyway, since weight loss is on my mind this morning, I posting this here.

A long time ago (2007/2008) I was raped twice in a period of eight months. My defense mechanism was to gain so much weight (about 100 pounds) that no one would find me attractive, thus I would not be a target for being raped ever again. Well, now, I want to lose that weight. (Mostly, because I’ve met someone for whom I would like to be attractive.) But it’s still kind of scary because, while I want this man’s attention; I still don’t want other men’s attention.

I stepped on the scale this morning and was pleased to see that I weigh 4 pounds less than I did last year at this time. (Accidental weight loss -- Does anyone ever have that problem?)

So, I guess this is my weight loss, mental health, relationship progress journal.