I have been struggling to get clean for 8 years now, 4 inpatient, 3 outpatient, 4 halfway houses, jail, homeless and nothing left. I have tried everything they have told me. Sponsors, readings, work the steps, 90 meeting in 90 days but I always get bored with it a use. I'm just wondering if I'm one of the unfortunates? It's scary to think that I can't make meaningful connections in recovery, I think this is because of the borderline personality disorder, I want meaningful relationships just can't seem to make that connection. Please help!